Pregnancy Brain At It's Finest Hour

Where is it? I put it right there.... Did I lose it again? Why is nothing where I can find it???

Yep, it is that time of the pregnancy again... I have officially lost more memory in the past week than I can recall ever having in the first place.... lol, (get it?) :p  And the one thing that has suffered the most out of it all is my garage interior door knob... It has taken my aggression, aggravation, irritation, sarcastic comments and anger all at once. It has been utterly destroyed via hammer and a mother in a hurry. For the second time this week I assumed my keys to be in either A. coat pocket or B. purse. Both times they were sitting nicely upon the kitchen counter top behind locked doors and windows. 1st time was after lunch during the week, luckily I had my phone on me and not in the truck, which was locked, so I was able to call my husband to rescue me. 2nd time (today) a phone call to him would have rendered us stranded outside in the truck for a few days since he is across the country until Monday.... Luckily the truck was unlocked this time and I was able to use the garage door opener to gain access to at least the garage. Which as soon as I opened our dogs bolted out into the neighborhood causing me and our son to play cowboys and wrangle them back in. Unfortunately the door to go inside the house was locked too. Which left me with two options, pick the lock (no time for that, as we had 15 min to be at the gym for Basketball pictures and games) or beat the CRAP out of the door knob with a hammer and gain access.... I took option number two... I almost went for the sledge hammer and decided that would cause much more damage than was necessary and I'd rather replace a knob than an entire door... :p  So, it worked and we made our way to the gym on base at the exact time he needed to be there by... Yay to Super Mommy!!!

Keys have become my biggest inconvenience.... As for other forgetful moments... The oven is my second worst followed closely/tied by my straightener or curling iron. And then of course there is the list of things to do that I am constantly rewriting due to misplacement and/or that wonderful grocery list that I take out of my purse to write one more thing down that gets left at the desk or kitchen table, and of course this is not realized until I'm at the store. Bring on the Third Trimester!!! :))))

There are many articles out there showing how pregnancy brain is proven as a real diagnosis for memory loss due to blood flow etc, and advice on how to overcome it, here is one:
http://www.ivillage.ca/parenting/study-finds-pregnancy-brain-or-%E2%80%9Cmomnesia%E2%80%9D-real 

 This seems to sum up myself at least once a day...

3 day weekends are a blessing!

               

This evening is the start of a "free" 3 day weekend for us. I love this time of year when all the time off is holiday pay and I can hold onto what little paid time off I have. Most of my time off gets taken by a sick little boy, a sick mommy, prenatal appointments, etc. Such is the life of a prego mommy while her hubby was deployed. That's right, WAS! He is home now, and all is right with the world. He came home a few days before Christmas and we spent the holiday back in his home town, the windy city, with his family and friends. It was a wonderful visit, but much too short, especially for him. He was able to show me a portion of his childhood, schools, friends, stories, pictures (which is always a favorite of mine to look at), and of course the home he grew up in, which is where we stayed with his parents and younger brother.

Since he has been home it has been a whirl wind and the days seem to just fly by.... New Years I was tired and cranky but he had me stay up and watch the ball drop. Then my birthday just 10 days later.... That's right I am now 28, but I feel better than I did when I was pregnant with Jake at age 20! :)) I love being pregnant, even when my feet start to swell and my back feels like someone is attempting to drill a screw into the nerves along my lower back... All of this comes as a blessing every time I feel baby Michael show off his water aerobic stunts throughout my belly. Oh yea! We found out just before Christmas that we are having a BOY!!!!!! Baby Butta is now known as baby Michael Richard Butta!!!! :))) Daddy's middle name as the baby's first name and my dad's first name as the baby's middle name. Perfect!!!

SO this weekend is going to be a bit different. While we were back home for Christmas we spent time with a very close friend of his who is getting married next month in Miami. After they shared a few drinks the bachelor party idea got thrown around with Las Vegas in mind. Then and there I told my hubby he HAAAAASSSS to go! He's never been and going with his buddies first would be the ideal experience. Lo-and-behold that trip is this weekend, which just so happens to be the weekend right before his birthday this Tuesday the 17th. :) I kissed him goodbye around 4am this morning as he left to go to the airport. Is it bad that I pushed so hard for him to go? Is it bad that I'm glad he caved in and went? Is it bad that I'm glad he's not here this weekend so I can get a few things done that I would not have been able to if he were here (i.e. the making of his birthday presents). :p Tomorrow alone will be a busy day with Jake's Build and Grow  at Lowes followed immediately by basketball pictures and scrimmage games!!! :))) And then Sunday and Monday will be dedicated to arts and crafts for Jake and I. :))) What I plan on making.... I'm still not sure.... lol.... I have several items in mind but want to also save something to be made for Valentine's Day next month. <3

Thirsty Thursday

Today I want a caramel apple spice from Starbucks.... This has become my drink from them once again. (This is how my Starbucks relationship began in high school, coffee wasn't my thing until after I had Jake).

Since the nearest one is about a 15-20min drive away (not like Cali with 5-10 within a 3-5mile radius) I will probably have to wait until the weekend to quench this thirst. I'd say it is a good thing though that it is so far away. Between my husband and I we would probably have to put a lean on our house for the amount that we would intake on a daily basis. :p For now, I'm downing my water and at lunch I consumed some grapefruit juice at home. Suck down the good stuff to treat myself over the weekend. :)

(Something else that I miss having easy access to, an In-n-Out milk shake..... nom nom nom)

Love Don't Run

I have heard this song many times on the radio but last night I was able to hear it live at the concert I went to with our 7 year old son. (His first concert ever! Besides Rascal Flats and Brooks and Dunn when I was 7 months preggers with him) :) We enjoyed it quiet a bit and he enjoyed running to the front dancing and taking pictures. Might have a little concert goer with me yet. :) (other than the fact that an hour after bed time it was time to go for both of us).

Back to the song, when he sang this it brought back a few good and not so good memories. Music tends to do that, I'm sure that's a fact for most of us. However, the memory that replays most in my mind is with my husband, I'm glad that he stuck with me when we were dating and I was going through some rough patches of complete and utter independence/not wanting much to do with him as I feared it not working and my son and I being left in the rear view mirror again. While my fears were rational my lack of trust was not, as he was nothing like the ones that brought on my trust issues, yet that trust took longer to gain.... And everyday he continued to hold on and prove that he would never let go. This is what I am most thankful for when it comes to our relationship and, now, marriage. <3



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2i0k6mHx4c&NR=1


This is gonna hurt, this is gonna hurt like hell
This is gonna damn near kill me, sometimes the truth ain't easy
I know that you’re scared of telling me something
I don’t wanna hear, but baby believe that
I’m not leaving, you couldn’t give me one good reason

[Chorus:]
Love don’t run, love don’t hide
It won't turn away or back down from a fight
Baby I’m right here and I ain't going anywhere
Love’s too tough it wont give up no not on us
Baby Love don’t run

Let’s lay it on the line, I don’t care if it takes all night cause
This is gonna make us stronger, it’s gonna make forever longer
I know it’d be easier walking away but what we got is real
And I wanna save us, baby we can do it, Baby we’ll get through it 'cause...

[Chorus:]
Love don’t run, love don’t hide
It won't turn away or back down from a fight
Baby I’m right here and I ain't going anywhere
Love’s too tough, it wont give up no not on us
Baby Love don’t run
Baby love don’t run

[Bridge:]
So come over here and lay down in my arms
Baby tell me everything that’s on your heart, 'cause...

[Chorus:]
I won’t run, and I won’t hide
I won’t turn away, I just wanna make things right
Baby I’m right here and I ain't going anywhere
Love’s too tough it won’t give up no not on us
Baby Love don’t run
Baby Love don’t run

Deployments.....

(This says it all perfectly)

It seems that shortly after he left parts of the house has said to hell with me, the cars, the dogs, and at points the man-child. Yesterday was the last straw and I broke down into tears. It doesn't help being pregnant, emotional, sick, stressed, and just downright tired. My motto with him and dealing with literally everything has been "I got this". Yesterday, I had it but felt like it was always something coming up each and every darn week. Ok while looking back it really wasn't thaaaaaaaat big of a deal but so many things boiled up that I broke. Here is just yesterday alone: Woke up with more tissue on the floor than I had recalled using the night before, hard night of little sleep, but got up early and baked the pumpkin pie. Got Jake and myself ready. rushed out the door "almost" forgetting the pie, rushed back in and got it, dropped our boy off at school, and while going to work had the engine light come on (no biggie, needs oil change and tune up) followed by the tire light (damn......) (Mind you this happened last week in my truck and turned out to be a punctured tire). Well no time to deal with it, rush into work. Go check the tires, they all seem good, (maybe it was just the dramatic change in weather over the weekend). Drive to my buddy's work to get my comp from him, drive back to work, park, annnnnnnd...... The damn key won’t come out of the ignition. Push, pull, make sure it's in park, nothing. FFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!! Go upstairs to my office explain the situation and take it to the hobby shop on base. One of the guys that I have worked with before with our work vehicles comes out and fixes it in minutes. (Instert more tears) Turns out the hubby's unknown strength and breaking part of his center console became wedged and wasn't allowing it to hit the sensor in park to release the keys. UGGG! Thank the mechanic and go to leave. Use all my strength to basically break it more to get the shifter to move and drive straight home. Slam it in park, lock the doors and grab my truck. D-U-N with the Jeep. Go back to work, get off work and pick up Jake. Go home to an awfully warm house..... WTF?!?! I left the oven ON all day!!!! Thank the Good Lord nothing bad happened! Scold myself for being so darn forgetful, make Jake a quick dinner, get him dressed and ready and then off we go with his buddy and mommy and baby brother to go Trick or Treating. That was actually calming. :) Home, Jake counted his candy, shower and scooted him off to bed. Watched my TiVo'd Homeland and then off to bed with myself. Yea, about summed it up. Good part during the day was the hubby called and I got to tell him how his Jeep is going off a cliff and we are getting him a new vehicle, of his choice, next year (no arguments there and he's pretty excited about it). LOL Woooooooo weeeeee. So far while he's been gone: master bathroom turned into an indoor pool (hot water line under the sink came off in the middle of the night) and soaked through carpeting and the cement foundation which caused me to have to move furniture and tear out all the carpet padding underneath, dishwasher took a major dump and had to have that replaced, truck tire was punctured by some "road hazard", Jake started talking back a lot more at school (that has finally been nipped in the butt), one of the bills under his name is wrong and I can't change it without him, me coming down with strep throat (really, haven't had that in at least a decade or more!), Jake and I both being sick, then there is general maintenance, doctor's appointments etc etc. I look back and wonder how I did it all before him? LOL Weird how easily I fell right into a routine with us, and I'll say this, it sucks having that gone right now. I miss him in more ways than one. :p


Ok so, I would like to state that I am not complaining about it all I am just saying how crazy it all was and has been/continues to be and what topped everything off with a tearful, pregnancy induced emotional breakdown. :p I am glad that since he can't be here he at least gives me a whole lot of emotional support and makes me crack up laughing with some of the things he sees and experiences. :) Yes it could always be worse! I am definitely looking forward to him coming home!!! Less than 50 days, YAY!!!